This week my heart felt like it wanted to rip open
my chest and scream. I’ve been extremely angry, and the worst thing about anger
is collateral damage. If anger could be controlled, it has the potential to be
a very beneficial emotion. It all depends on where you direct your anger.
Unfortunately, anger doesn’t usually work like a laser beam; it works more like
a nuclear weapon.
What makes me angry? Nothing much new here. People
make me angry; having too much trivial stuff to do make me angry. Not feeling
good makes me angry. I can control my display of anger most of the time, but I’m
not always good at dealing with the hidden anger inside. What I try to do is harness the power of anger
so that I can be productive with what otherwise would be harmful negative
energy.
Have I been successful this week? Somewhat. The
challenge of life is sometimes just making it through the day without inflecting any damage– and that includes to yourself. I’m still standing, and for this
week, maybe that means I’ve been successful.
I have a number of “big ideas” and “projects”
floating around in my mind, but my time right now is limited. This week, I’ve
simply moved forward on all of them. One step forward is better than nothing. I’m
still angry that I don’t have time and energy to do more, but if I didn’t move
at least one step forward: at best, my anger would dissolve into indifference,
and at worst, it would try to hit the self-destruct button.
What makes you angry? How do you use your
anger constructively?
“A man is as big as the things that make him angry.”
– Winston Churchill
I really cannot think of anything that makes me angry enough to remark on it. People? Why would people make me angry? I am not responsible for their lacks, whatever they may be. Anger usually, in my view,stems from frustration. What causes frustration? Often frustration is caused by one's trying to do too much or too many things. Often frustration is caused by misdirection of energy (which is related to trying to do too much or too many things, especially things that are of little real value)
ReplyDeleteIf one is not beset by anger, then one may be content and at peace. This state of being content and at peace, especially at peace with oneself, can lead to much more constructive thinking than anger usually does.
I recommend avoiding the temptations to become angry.
Upon further reflection, I'm sure a lot of what I've been feeling this week is directly related to the amoxicillin I've been taking for a finger infection. I can be "angry" and "stressed out" under normal circumstances, but this week has been different and somewhat off the charts...
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